CW: mention of sexual abuse, PTSD
It’s been a while. It’s nice to see you again.
The saying goes:
Don’t listen to your favourite music when you’re sad. It will ruin it forever.”~ Someone important
Your body remembers how you felt and will always remind you of it when you listen to it again.
I did this to Dan Mangan.
He got me through so many tough times with his albums. I cried so many tears listening to Postcards & Daydreaming while figuring out if I could ever love myself after certain mistakes I made. I did eventually love myself again. Thanks, Dan.
There is one song of his that is really really good. I can’t listen to it anymore.
Troubled Mind was playing just before a man I didn’t know too well stole my sense of security, my self-love. He didn’t listen, he didn’t realize. He apologized after, it felt sincere. I’m over it but I still can’t listen to Troubled Mind. I’m sorry, Dan.
I’m not going to go into the details because the details are for me to smooth out and be okay with. I’ve put them away in a jar in the garden and they will stay there along with his memory. I’ve changed the locks on the door.
Listen to Troubled Mind for me, will you?