It’s a lot.

CW: Abortion

It’s all a little too much, isn’t it?

That’s what I’ve been asking myself since November 2016. I cried the night Cheetoh King was elected. How can one man cause so much destruction? What else could possibly happen? And then it just kept happening. Layers upon layers of catastrophe.

But you’re Canadian! You say.

Well, yes I am and I’m able to weep for my sisters to the south of me. I wept for them because I knew Roe V. Wade was on the chopping block. It’s surreal watching the country right next to you crumble slowly. Our foundation is showing similar cracks in Canada. We’re not free of this madness. Is the party you voted for pro-choice?

I haven’t needed an abortion. I’m pro-choice. I’m pro healthcare. Public health saves lives. Abortion saves lives. Abortion is safe. This isn’t about murdering babies, this is about restricting women and people who have uteruses. Why are we still fighting this war on people’s bodies? Why does it seem like only cishet men have body autonomy?

It’s all a little too much, isn’t it?

Consistent, I am not.

Oxford Languages says:

con·sist·ent/kənˈsistənt/adjective

  1. acting or done in the same way over time, especially so as to be fair or accurate. “the parents are being consistent and firm in their reactions”
    • unchanging in nature, standard, or effect over time. “he is their most consistent player this season”
    • compatible or in agreement with something.

If you do any sort of research into being successful at social media and the digital world, one of the first steps is being consistent. Posting consistently, being online all the time, giving the people what they want. What they want changes constantly but if you’re consistent in giving it to them, you should succeed.

But what if you’re like me? A slow artist. An artist that creates only in the flows and not the ebbs. What if the ebb is much longer than the flow? The past 18 months has been one long ebb. There has been moments of flow, don’t get me wrong. I am excited about the ideas in my head. Getting the ideas out in the open is where I struggle. There’s a scene in season three of Schitt’s Creek between Moira and David talking about his penchant for big ideas and very little follow through. I don’t want this blog to collect dust while I dream of what it could be.

CortiSaul and I need to figure out a better way of being consistent even if it looks and acts differently than other people’s success.

How do you maintain consistency in your life? How do you show up every day for the things you dream of?